Been a Rough Road...

As many of you know, I have been battling post-partum depression for almost a year now. At first I was scared to admit that that's what it was, but I have decided to embrace the issue and tackle it head on!

It started out as that feeling of overwhelmingness (is that even a word?) and progressively got worse. I haven't wanted to go out with my friends, I feel out of control when the house gets messy, I have irrational fears of losing the people I love, and so on and so forth. It has been really rough on me and Travis and Lauren, but I am now seeking help and I'm slowly starting to feel better.

My life is beautiful and while I may not live in a fancy house or drive a fancy car or make a ton of money, I have a lot to be thankful for. I have a husband who loves me very much (even though he can be a pain in the butt sometimes), and BEAUTIFUL daughter who makes everyday worth living for, and a dog who thinks I can do no wrong. I have 2 healthy parents who I see often now, and the rest of my family is pretty great too! So I had to have a new outlook on things and it really put my life into perspective.

If you have ever gone through this and need help, I know a great person to talk to. Also, please feel free to ask questions because I am willing to share my experiences with you and get feedback as well.

For those of you who have helped me in any way, thank you so much for your love and support. I don't know what we would have done without you!

Welcome Little Man!

My sister-in-law Heidi and her hubby Mark welcomed their little guy into the world last night. Michael Bradley Law is now here! Can't wait to meet him...

And Stephen's sister had her baby too last night just a few doors down. Congrats!

Lauren's First Easter

Lauren is sick...again...

My poor baby girl is sick yet again. I got a call from her daycare yesterday around noon and they told me she was running a 103.1 temp. so I went and picked her up. Made a call to the doctor and had her checked out (since she just got off antibiotics on Friday) and he's convinced it's just viral. Brought her home and she slept for 3 hours, woke up and ate some dinner (at 8:00 at night), had a tubby, hung out with mom for a little while, then had a bottle and went back to sleep until 4:15 when she woke up with a fever again.

Today has been the same. I give her tylenol, it breaks the fever, then as soon as it wears off the fever is back. Looks like we will be home again tomorrow...wish me luck!

What a Crummy Weekend

My Valentine's weekend is over and hopefully all the bad stuff that came with it...with a few exceptions of course. On Firday I was sitting in my chair at work and this really nice man handed me a HUGE boquet of flowers and when I read the card I wanted to cry. My husband is so wonderful and I am so blessed to have him.

Friday night we went to dinner with Travis' family for Nana's birthday at Double Dragon. I went straight from work so Travis and Lauren met me there. When Travis got there Lauren looked awful. She had been crying and just looked absolutly miserable. She tried to eat and wouldn't so I just held her and then she perked up a little bit. Everyone went to Nana and Papa's house for cake, but we decided to bring the girl home and go to bed. Poor thing ran a fever of almost 102 all night, so we just put her in bed with us and tried to keep her comfy.

Travis let me sleep in Saturday morning and then brought Lauren into me around 9 so she could take her nap. She slept for about an hour and then woke up crying. She was pretty miserable until her Nanny Pam came over to play. She perked up for Nanny and they hung out for a little while. Nanny had to go to the casino with Nana and Papa and Aunt Debbie, so she left and we had dinner. Travis got Hubby's...my favorite! Lauren would fall asleep and as soon as I'd lay her in her crib, she'd scream. So we ended up sleeping in Mommy and Daddy's bed again.

Today has been a little rough. It's amazing what Tylenol can do for a kid, but when it wears off...WATCH OUT! II'm going to go wake my husband up in the recliner and make him come to bed now.

Here's to a better week!

Lauren is 9 months old!

I can't believe that our little girl is already nine months old. She spent the day with her Nanny Pam and got spoiled to pieces! Travis and I got her a stroller with a baby doll for Christmas and Nanny put it together for her today...she loves it! She pushed it all over the house for me.

She says Mama, Dada, and we're pretty sure she's trying to say Jock. Of course it's all just baby babble, but it's so dang cute. She is a very smart girl...she gets that from her Momma.

Happy 9 month Birthday Lauren Michel!

Girls Weekend

This past weekend was a total girls weekend...and we had a lot of fun! Daddy went to Portland to visit his friend Matt and check out the new gym so Mommy and baby girl got to hang out. We had a lot of fun! We took a nap together on Friday afternoon, then spent the evening laughing and playing. On Saturday I had to work at the pharmacy so Lauren got to spend the morning with Nanny Pam and Aunt Trisha and Kylee and Deegan. She loves her auntie and her auntie loves her to pieces...it's pretty obvious. Grandma Debbie and Grandpa Steve stopped by for a visit in the afternoon and then we went to Nana and Papa's to meet Trisha and the kids before we went to dinner at Hubby's...whew...what a whirlwind of activity! On Sunday Lauren had a rough morning when she was going through Daddy withdrawls...good thing he came home at 3!

The point to this blog was to say thank you to Travis for being such a wonderful father and such a loving husband. I don't know what I would do without you!